I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason. Since I have been dealing with health issues for the last month and a half or so, a lot of my every day habits have come under more intense scrutiny as I work towards healing and feeling like my normal self. One of these habits has been my tendency to shrug off sleep in favor of staying up late.
I’ve written before how it has never been easy to call it an early night. I am definitely much more of a night owl than a morning person, although I do believe that these labels are not mutually exclusive. You can train yourself to wake up earlier, and indeed there have been seasons in my life where it was a lot easier to get up early than it is right now.
Last night I went to bed at 11pm which is early for me! I was starting to get a little bit sleepy, and since I was going to have to be up a bit earlier to make it to a morning meeting, I decided to not fight it and just go to bed. I brushed my teeth and got in bed and applied some lavender balm on my temples, forehead and chest to help transition into sleep and after setting my alarm, set out to fall asleep. I must have laid there for close to an hour trying to fall asleep without much success. It was incredibly frustrating.
This morning I was awake about 25 minutes or so before my alarm was set to go off and drifted in and out of sleep that entire time. One of my dogs was not helping the situation by scratching and shaking incessantly. Mornings have been somewhat rough since I haven’t had coffee in close to a month. It only dawned on me the other day just how much more energy I feel when I have a nice caffeine kick going. I don’t want to rely on stimulants though to feel ‘good’; I want to get my body and mind to a place where I’m feeling productive without them.
Besides being more observant about my sleeping habits, I have also been trying to increase my repertoire of self-care/soothing activities. One thing I have been enjoying is listening to really zen spa-like music while at work. I am not much of a music person, it never really occurs to me to play a song, and I can hardly ever remember the names of artists or bands I like. On Monday it was a three-hour classical music medley, and the last two days have been more instrumental with a lot of Peruvian windpipes. It’s definitely a more mellow way to spend my workday, and when the music is highly repetitive, it makes it easier to disappear into a particular task. No coffee and spa-like music. Pretty soon I’m going to petition to get one of those nap pods put in, and life will be complete.