There has been a brutal heat wave where I live this whole week and as the temperatures continue to rise, my motivation keeps heading in the opposite direction. It’s been quite frustrating. I really haven’t felt up to par to do much of anything and it’s starting to affect my mood. Oddly enough, I didn’t put two and two together that the heat might be having something to do with it but as I have been spending more time outside walking to far flung parts of campus to use equipment I need for my work, I have been getting hit with some extra doses of UV than I normally do. I’m one of those people that doesn’t do heat very well; there are only so many clothes you can take off in public before you get arrested. It doesn’t help that what I have been working on is very tedious and time-consuming, and even though I am just trying to put my head down and get as much of it done as quickly as possible since I have a deadline for when it all needs to be finished, it is still hard to be excited when it’s the same thing over and over again, just switching samples.
I don’t know how other people notice when their motivation drops, maybe their procrastination increases but for me I can tell when I’m not feeling my best when the TV stays on for most of the night. I came home last night and after grabbing a quick bite (I didn’t even feel up to cooking, the thought of a hot stove or oven was a real turnoff), I watched at least two hours on and off of shows I had recorded earlier in the week. It’s not a big deal but it’s just such a difference from my usual evening routine. At one point I lay back on my couch and started going through my phone, reading different people’s posts on social media while the TV was on in the background. After that I think I spent a good 15-20 minutes alone watching Giuliana Rancic selling her wares on QVC. I finally forced myself to pick one thing and ended up watching a local station until my husband came home. Even this morning after getting in well over eight hours of sleep, my husband could tell that I woke up in an off mood, as I wasn’t my usual chatty self over breakfast.
I spent the rest of today mostly inside (thank goodness for A/C) and I can already feel that I am somewhat more motivated than I was yesterday. Luckily, I planned ahead hoping that my mood would improve and wore workout clothes to increase my likelihood of hitting the indoor gym (ran 5K on the treadmill, not too shabby for starting off the day in such a funk). Even if the heat continues at a punishing level, with just one day left in my work schedule and the weekend tantalizing close, I will hopefully finish everything I need to do and still have some energy left over.